Fast forward to kindergarten, aged 4. Already I am telling my kindy teachers "When I go to university…. when I change the world…"
I start school - school is an means to an end: I have my eye set on university. But I'm an all-rounder. Most things I pick up academically I succeed in. I receive many labels - dork, nerd, fat kid, the loner, the academic, the smart kid. I am "left brained". I also physically develop quicker than my peers. I battle my strong stubborn will to succeed into university in the chaos of bullying, develop low self esteem and perfectionist tendencies.
Have many brief encounters with religion - but they don't sit well with my scientifiic, inquiring mind. But not being brought up with formal religion, I crave to know my essence of who I am and what I am doing here. This existential crisis moulds with my perfectionism and in my early teens I go searching for my vocation: wrote a letter to my GP asking her how she became a doctor; did numerous stints of work experience in the health care industry - speech pathology, psychology, optometry, medical imaging, radiation therapy - ask my parents about nursing and get told "you're too smart for that - too smart for bedpans" and this message gets reinforced by educational institutions and society.
Nurture my need for creativity through structured means - poetry, singing in the school choir, performing on stage in youth theatre, playing clarinet and piano. But never encouraged to pursue art or music as a career - "you're an academic with a brain for books and knowledge".
Year 12 - Maths 1, Maths 2, Physics, Chemistry, English - a year steeped in scientific and mathematic theory and application, with some rounding in english literature. Over my late teens I worked hard at becoming a well-rounded citizen as a Venturer Scout, completing my Queen's Scout Award. Develop my inner drive for leadership and teaching and wanting to change the world. Undertake many volunteer opportunities - library service, Trees for Life, working on camps for children with disabilities, providing first aid (eventually join St John Ambulance and Royal Life Saving Society from my encounters with these organisations). Develop the habit of busy-ness.
Launch myself into what I thought would be my career forever - studied radiation oncology, graduated, moved interstate to take a graduate job as a radiation therapist. Existential crisis reinvents itself.
Walk into a spiritual shopfront business. Get my first reading. And my spiritual world blows open! Watch "What the Bleep do we Know?" and experience (or rather notice) my first miracle - feathers appearing out of no where in my room. Find Masaru Emoto's book on "The Hidden Messages in Water" and my mind blows open.
Leave my job at the end of its contract, move back in with my parents back home, study nursing - but stay "in the closet" about my spiritual life. Complete Reiki 1, Reiki 2 and Seichim, 1st level Tarot and a Soul Guidance course. But focus on my nursing studies and eventually my nursing work. Complete First Class Honours research thesis. Meet my now husband, trying to hide my "woo woo" side - get busted for it within 2 days of meeting.
Fast forward a few years later - suppression of my spiritual nature leads to my perfectionism, anxiety and depression rearing its ugly head in our relationship and my life. Get stuck in a rut. Existential crisis continues. Have 1st baby and get hit with the weight of the world (that's a story in itself) coupled with encounters with post natal depression. Finally decide enough is enough and book a Shine Consult with the Beautiful Julie Parker! She uses her magic to help me unlock my magic and the inter web networking happens - connecting with all of these wonderful entrepreneurs with soulful messages that are inspirational - Tara Bliss, Rachel McDonald, Jen Saunders, Belinda Davidson, Leonie Dawson, Laura Simms, and the list goes on. Sign up for Leonie's Amazing Biz and Life Academy. Find a good psychologist!!
Connect with inner desire to teach the world about my belief in the link between science and spirituality. Connect with my inner desire to change the world, and overhaul the health care industry. Realise I have no idea what I am doing! Get inspiration to start Mama Melzie blog. Procrastinate!! Moment of inspiration watching "Happy" and want to be a HAPPINESS LEADER! by pursuing happiness and joy in my own life and leading by example. Feel the need to jump in the wild donkey (as Leonie would say) and just get something out there while I find my direction - start writing and talking about the things I am intuitively driven to teach in my own voice. Write this journey story!! :)
Come along for the ride!!